Motivation

It is cold here today. The outside temp is 49 but there is an icy, vicious wind. Brrrrrr. My son has built a nice, warm fire and it is toasty here on the couch. I am finding it hard to get motivated today. There are many things I could and should be doing but I just can't seem to get going. I did start the irrigation water this morning. And of course got soaked doing it .

Okay. We just had a blast of snow. I  told you my pansies would get snowed on! Oh well.

I'm struggling with my emotions today. I am easily angered. Leaning heavily toward resentment and bitterness. I don't want to be this way. I want to joy-full. I want so much joy that it overflows onto those around me. I pray for that daily. I was raised in house of bitterness, resentment and anger. And blame. There was always someone to blame. Nothing just "happened" it was always someones "fault". I do not want my children to live like that. I want my children to see joy in all things. I want my children to forgive not blame. I want my children to reach out in Christian love not condemnation. It is so hard when I see or hear my children use a harsh word or tone and recognize that they learned it from me. Heart breaking.

Proverbs is one of my favorite books in the Bible. Proverbs 15:1 says:

A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.  NAS

Words to live by. How about Proverbs 14:29

He who is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who is quick- tempered exalts folly  NAS

Proverbs 15:13

A joyful heart makes a cheerful face, but when the heart is sad, the spirit is broken. NAS

I hope this day finds you with a joyful heart.

Blessings.