Valleys

I can't sleep. It's 4 a.m. here and I just can't sleep. My husband is gone, I never sleep well without him. I expected him home last night but he won't be here until sometime today.

We're going thru something in our marriage. Something I thought only happened to "other people." It feels like there is a wall between us and it is lonely. I hate it. I hate the cause of it. I want to go back to how it was. But we can't go back. We can only go forward. I wish we could go far enough forward that this was just a dim memory.

My husband is everything to me. I am completely dependant upon him. Mentally, physically and emotionally. And right now I feel kind of bereft. Stranded. Maybe I should be "strong" and "independant", but I am not. I am weak and clingy.

Do you ever wonder what we're supposed to learn by what God let's us go thru? What exactly am I supposed to take away from this experience?

I wonder if our kids feel that way about the lessons we teach them? There's a thought.

This is a deep valley. And it sucks in here. I hope I make it out soon. I miss the sun.

Blessings.

Updated Pups

Here is the updated photo of the whole family. Aren't they cute?

Blessings.

Christmas Giveaway

Had to sneak this in before the deadline (tomorrow). A great Christmas giveaway here The Mennobrarian. Check it out.

But don't enter 'cause that inceases my chances

OOps!

I posted too soon! She's had 3 more boys!

Puppies!

Our little white rats I mean puppies were born today! Four squirmy, whiney, little yellow labs. 2 girls & 2 boys. Mama & puppies are doing fine .

The girls are spoken for but the boys are for sale. Any takers?

Blessings.

#9

Tomorrow my baby girl turns 9 . How did that happen?

She celebrated today by having a friend over to spend the night. We did the cake & ice cream & presents. She chose all pink party stuff (big surprise ) & she wanted a pink teddy bear cake

As silly as it sounds, I didn't get any pictures of her . We did the whole party part with the video camera, so, oh well.

She has had SO many requests for her birthday. She wanted the pink teddy bear cake. No problem. She wanted donuts for breakfast (homemade). Okay. She wanted chicken pot pie for dinner (again homemade). Anything else???? Plus tomorrow is potluck so I made another cake for that. For the last 2 days it feels like I have done nothing but stand at the kitchen counter & mix, bake, fry, roll or cook something. I'm tired. But my baby girl is happy so I am happy.

This last picture is just for fun.

Blessings.

Silly Boy

My oldest son is 19 and lives in California. He recently broke up with the girl he had been dating for the past year. It was really a good thing because she was far more serious than he was.

So now apparently he has no one to talk to. Why do I say this? In the last 2 weeks he has called me a dozen times . This is a child who normally calls once a month if he's feeling chatty. Now he's calling almost every day during his lunch hour.

I am sorry for the turmoil in his life but it is good to talk to him. He calls up and wants sympathy and he gets absolutely none  I think he likes it. It's so much more fun to deal with a teenager and their life shattering events (which occur every 20 minutes or so) long distance. It's much easier to stay detached. When all the turmoil is under your roof it is much less fun .

So I have no idea how long the phone calls will last (probably until he finds a new girl) but I'm enjoying them while they do.

Blessings.